Here lies two tickets to my heart

One way takes me back home to those Smoke filled rooms and brown tinted carpet

Back to the days I’d lay in your arms with a mind full of naïveté

Back to the days I thought we’d raise our little boy together

But the other

The other takes me on a wild twisted journey

One where you cant see how far the road bends or how much it twist until the end

The one that feels like success again

The one I have to sacrifice my sons growth and development for education

Resulting in only three days of vacation

What do I do

I know

now I must choose

But what more do I have to lose

I lost my dream and lifelong fantasy in less than 270 days

I lost myself and detoured away from my old conscience ways

I paid a price for loving you

It hurts to know I can’t have what my soul truly desires which is you

So I guess for now my heart will choose option two