By now my heart should be bullet proof whenever I hear your name
Yet here I am laying in the bed
Being a victim to my brain
The subscription should have expired
A long time ago , yet I'm still paying for it
I tried to pray away the love I have for you
And In return I became prey to my own brain
Sometimes I question if I'm like Mick Foley
Do I love the pain ? Anyone else would have moved on
I pushed away so many women
Because of my love trauma
I heard a few days ago you recently pushed out your first little baby
when we dated that's the fate
I wanted to live out and I never got to
Time passes but bitterness never passes
It sits still and has simmered inside my heart
For awhile I thought I had nothing left feelings wise for you and I was proven wrong
Cupid must have went overboard with the arrows
I went stupid for you and never went back
I'd do anything to go back to how I was
Before I met you
One day I hope to forgive you
And today won't be that day
I don't think tomorrow will be either
Whenever that day comes I can't wait
holding grudges weighs a ton
and I'm looking forward
to letting it all go