The Darkness

There's a darkness that I feel in me

That sometimes takes a hold

It banishes the light inside

And wraps around my soul

I don't know how to fight it

I don't know what to do

I know that it envelops me

And sticks to me like glue

There's no way I can shake it

I smile and say "I'm fine"

I try to make you all believe

I'll be ok in time

The drugs and alcohol are just

Brief moments of respite

' Cause afterwards I just don't have

The will to try and fight

I know my life is precious

But I've never been this low

And never would I take my life

But sometimes I don't know

It's a constant struggle

A battle everyday

I've tried so many things to keep

The demons all at bay

When I look in the mirror

I don't know who I see

I only know that person

Is someone I used to be

You look at me but never see

The pain I've locked inside

That everyday gets harder still

For me to try to hide

Someday things may be different

Maybe one day I'll cope

But until then I feel like there is

No room here for hope

So when you see a person smile

I hope you recognize

To know their true emotions

You must look deep into their eyes

Sometimes I feel lost and alone

I feel like no one cares

"Depression" is an ugly word

But it's my cross to bear

by: John Villarreal