i'm carrying an old heart within my chest ordeal does this to the most young I've seen God i met the devil i recognized none i marched with angels i drank with demons i cherished none God in his glory is beyond realization the devil and his fury is beyond sensation but i felt you my love in the darkest hour i felt your grip on my hand holding on to remnants of a man holding on to me pulling me out off my inferno back to life back to strife but if i'm to choose i choose only you in a parallel universe it could be only you my soul is old as the first deception my choices are limited as the first prohibition either to take you or not out in the darkness blind man awareness i was still wounded you could see that there could be no place for you or any one else my heart was locked and cast away i felt you like a balsam on my bondage but i couldn't feel you much further for i'm carrying an old heart ordeal did this to me i couldn't smile even when you smiled i couldn't smile back like a migraine attack i squeezed my eye sigh trying to remember you but i couldn't another migraine attack a torrent of memories contains none but you but how is it possible that i remembered the scars you gave to me and i couldn't remember the joy and laughter you broke my heart in two so i'm carrying on without you i'm carrying an old heart i can not love you or love you back