Falling

This feels like I've been erased;

like the notes of a forgotten Melody

As if what I meant or what I was is no more and whatever it was that I could've been doesn't matter to anyone, especially me

I'm free falling, flailing like a fish out of water; hoping, wishing someone would notice me, help me, throw me back in;

into the swing of things, back into life,

back into the life I once had where I was happy and care free.

Please don't let that just be a memory. I have to know that when I stop falling I'm not going to hit bottom but I'll be back where I started from with a chance to do it all over again but get it right this time...

But I'm still falling. I'm beginning to not see many on my way down and yet I'm unable to stop my decent... I'm scared, I'm alone, I'm fretful, I'm hurt, I'm grieving, I'm unseen, I'm falling