where did i go so wrong

where my legs tremble and my voice shakes

those goodnight messages are goodnight fights

and the boy that held my hand for so long is far away with hate in his heart

a new boy makes you shed tears now

not because he doesn’t want you

but because he wants someone else more

you are at a war with yourself

with what you want to do and what you know is right

your tears start to poor and all you ever wanted was to be someone’s first choice

not second or an option

not somebody who was just there to comfort you

but your one and only

the one that made your heart beat so fast the neighbors could hear

all i wanted to be was yours